Daycare

Well, my kiddos start daycare tomorrow. It's been so stressful trying to find one. We went to one today that I was sure we were going to use, but I hated it from the moment we walked in. If anyone knows me, they know I'm horrible at pretending things or lying or anything like that, so as soon as we got to the car Josh said so I guess they're not going there are they? Then I proceed to get teary eyed because this leaving my babies has been so hard on me. I have to go to class tomorrow and I missed a class last week because of the day care situation and can't tomorrow so us finding something today was crucial. So, my wonderful husband who really needed to go to work took me by another daycare that I've looked at, but is kind of expensive. Well, they didn't have anything available for part time which is what we are looking for right now, and the full time is so expensive. So we start going home and I'm so frustrated at this point. I don't know what we are going to do and we pass another day care on our way home, which we've passed numerous times before and I don't know how we missed it. So, Josh stops and goes in, talks to a lady for a couple of minutes and then comes back out and tells me to come look at it. We go in and I love it. I mean if I'm going to have to leave my kids somewhere this is where I want to leave them plus it's really close to our house. They have a code box on the outside and you get a special code you have to enter before you come in and then there's a computer to sign them in and once you do that opens the other door where the class rooms are at. So I feel really secure about leaving them there plus they have this thing called watch me grow where you can go online and see what your children are doing at all times. The only thing was they don't have space available for Cayson right now and probably won't until March 1st. After much consideration and lots of tears (I don't know why I'm so emotional about this) we have decided to go ahead and put Hayden in, and we are putting Cayson in the other one and we will switch him over when the one Hayden is at has space for him. This one Cayson will go to has the same safety features and it's a good day care as well, but it's really expensive (especially when we're paying for it so I can go to school...not because I'm working and bringing in an additional income) and they don't have anything for part time available so Cayson is enrolled full time which I doubt he will go and Hayden will go to the other one 3 days a week. Hopefully something will open up for Cayson really soon. However, I'm a little emotional about them not going to the same day care. I know it really doesn't matter because they won't be in the same room or anything, but it just makes me sad. Not to mention it's slightly inconvenient for us to have to drop off and pick up at 2 daycares, but they aren't that far apart and they are both on our way home. The inconvenient part will be that I have to pick Cayson up and get him situated in his car seat only to drive 3 minutes down the road and have to get him out of his care seat and go get Hayden and then get them both back in their car seats, but hopefully this will be a short term arrangement.

I'm dreading tomorrow though. Even though I feel comfortable in our daycare choices I'm really sad about not being able to be with my babies. I know it will be good for them though, and once I can finish school next year it will be good for me and our family. I know I will be an emotional wreck though and will probably be stalking them on the internet feature they have watching them to make sure everything is ok.