Quiet House

Well, my babies are both in daycare today. It's amazing how when you have 2 little ones that you are home with all day you wish you could have just a few moments of quietness, 5 minutes without a baby crying or a 2 year old repeating stuff over and over again, or wish your 2 year would stop harassing the dog and chasing her around the house making her bark while he's squealing with delight. However, when they're not here I hate the quietness. I'm sitting here waiting for it to be time to go to school so I'm not sitting in our house without my babies and hopefully will be so busy at school I won't have time to think about them. Then, when I leave I will get to go pick them up. I think it went alright. Cayson was slightly easier to drop off because he's so little he doesn't care who has him as long as he's being fed, held, and changed, but Hayden was harder. I've also been at home with Hayden for 2 1/2 years. He's not used to having to share his attention or get up early, or not be able to choose what he eats for breakfast, lunch and snacks. He walked right in wanting to play with the trains, but when we started to leave he got a little teary. I hate this, but I couldn't hold it in. I didn't even hug him before we left because I was afraid I was going to lose it right there in his classroom and then upset him even more. I know it will get easier, and he's only going part time for right now. Plus, I can watch him on the internet as soon as it activates, but it's still hard knowing someone else is caring for your babies because you can't.