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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Quiet House

Well, my babies are both in daycare today. It's amazing how when you have 2 little ones that you are home with all day you wish you could have just a few moments of quietness, 5 minutes without a baby crying or a 2 year old repeating stuff over and over again, or wish your 2 year would stop harassing the dog and chasing her around the house making her bark while he's squealing with delight. However, when they're not here I hate the quietness. I'm sitting here waiting for it to be time to go to school so I'm not sitting in our house without my babies and hopefully will be so busy at school I won't have time to think about them. Then, when I leave I will get to go pick them up. I think it went alright. Cayson was slightly easier to drop off because he's so little he doesn't care who has him as long as he's being fed, held, and changed, but Hayden was harder. I've also been at home with Hayden for 2 1/2 years. He's not used to having to share his attention or get up early, or not be able to choose what he eats for breakfast, lunch and snacks. He walked right in wanting to play with the trains, but when we started to leave he got a little teary. I hate this, but I couldn't hold it in. I didn't even hug him before we left because I was afraid I was going to lose it right there in his classroom and then upset him even more. I know it will get easier, and he's only going part time for right now. Plus, I can watch him on the internet as soon as it activates, but it's still hard knowing someone else is caring for your babies because you can't.

2 comments:

becca said...

Oh Paige, I so know how you feel, and I'm so sad for you right now. But I promise, it will get easier. Caden started daycare at 18 months old and seriously the first 2 weeks were hell. It was awful dropping him off every morning, with him screaming and crying. But now, he LOVES it! He loves his friends and his teachers. I promise, it does get easier!!! Hugs to you, and good luck with school!

xo
Becca

Kristen Brooks said...

I had a really hard time when Andrew started preschool. I need to finish my nursing degree but I just cant do the daycare thing, I will probably finish when they go to school. I dunno how you do it :( Andrew LOVES his preschool now, and I really enjoy 1 on 1 time with Landon so it turned out ok, but I was a mess the first few months!